Panic

Well I couldn't get ahold of my Key Volunteer so I contacted the Coordinator just to see the status of the guys and what exactly is going on over there. Come to find out that 5 marines were hurt and they were released from the hospital yesterday but she could neither confirm nor deny that my husband was one of the 5... she was having to verify who I was in order to let me know any information and she would call me back... Panic struck... I went sobing hardly even able to speak to Michelle trying to explain what is going on... I called Nathan's brother to see if he heard anything... but that was a no. The hurt I felt eariler was horriable... but it was all gone and It was like I was able to breath once again when I picked up my phone that was ringing to hear "hey Babe" on the other end... of course I lost told him what I was informed... that I hated him(which of course I don't) ... that was a horriable feeling in the world... but we got to talk, finally after 18 days I know he's safe, living in a castle, having to crap in a bag then burn it and can't take a showers cause the water is cold, eating MRE's... but he's Okay!!! He'll call tomorrow so he can talk to everyone at my in-laws on Christmas Eve. I miss him so much!!!!