Nikon D40

Yea!!! I got my camera up and running... It's what I told Nathan I wanted for Christmas and he told me to go buy it for myself since he's obviously in Afghanistan! I decided I wasn't going to that I would wait until he got back and he could get it for me but then Circut City was having a big sale (cause they are going out of business) so I just watched it... When it reached $399.00 with 20% off I couldn't pass it up... I am a huge penny pintcher and figured I could save us money if I did just go ahead and purchase it now! So I got it and finally go to use it on this beautiful day!!! Here are some of my shots...

Care Packages

Today Gerri and I went to the Houston Marine Moms lunchon and then to the packing of the care packages. I can say these ladies are awesome! Though they are moms and I am a wife it's good to be around people that are in similar situations as you. We all had to introduce ourselves and tell where our Marine was at and how we became part of the group. Gerri went before I did and she got me choked up. She started to cy and couldn't finish... so I did. Though it made me feel really good that she did say she was happy Nathan found his soulmate (that's when I started to cry) and that she loves me and is happy for him that he found someone he loves, trusts and can talk to... I don't know it just makes you feel good that they approve.Later we all went to Sheila's house and got to filling up those care packages!!! Guess they guys in 3/8 are gonna love Houston Marine Moms... and 1 wife... LOL!

I got a Call!!

I am so excited that I got to talk to Nathan today... Woo Hoo!!! Though I forgot to ask him any questions that I really needed to know. Instead I asked about what he needed and the things that Houston Marine Moms needed to know... Great guess I will have to wait another month before I can get these questions answered...

Fallen Heros

Today I knew about on fallen hero, but found out that we lost another as well. I haven't heard anything from Nathan in 17 days and now I think I am really going to loose it. It's hard hearing that kind of information and my heart goes out to the families that lost their sons and husbands. Finding out today though is different, way different because these guys are in 3/8 with Nathan one being in H&S company as well, the same as Nathan. It just hits a little to close to home, if you know what I mean. I know they say no news is good news so that's what I remind myself all the time and I fear that I will find out on the news that something has happend to Nathan, though I know that's not possiable. They have to notify me first and I have to give the permission to release the information to the public. It's just hard.... very very hard and I can't wait until he's done!

Moment

So it's one year as of today that I confessed how I felt to Nathan... Funny I thought that I was never going to get the chance cause I thought I blew it in 2005. And here we are a year later, a lot has happened in a year... We got together, got married and now he's deployed. I was at my sister in laws last night celebrating the turning of the year. Around 11 at night I just couldn't take it so I left and went home. I turned the radio on and listened to the countdown to midnight and begin to cry. I had a moment last night... a moment where I really missed my husband, a moment in thinking of the year before and wishing he was home. All military wives understand these moments when their husband is gone but it's hard to understand for others. They look at it as if we choose to be down... we don't. We go everyday fighting our emotions to gain strength and pray everyday for the safety of our Marine. We go days and weeks without communication and still manage though it's hard. So don't tell me to stay and drink... don't tell me I am doing this to myself, don't tell me I was like this on Christmas... don't tell me anything unless you know exactly how I feel, until then don't tell me anything just be there for me. I know I chose this life I chose to be his wife... I chose us and I know it's going to be hard... as I'm sure there are hard times for anyone and they want to have their "Moment" Moments when the son moves out or the daughter gets married or their spouse decided to leave or you get in a car accident... we all have moments in our life where it's okay to break down, that others in this world may never experience... so don't tell me I'm doing it to myself don't remind me I chose this life... when having moments help people move forward.