Panic

Well I couldn't get ahold of my Key Volunteer so I contacted the Coordinator just to see the status of the guys and what exactly is going on over there. Come to find out that 5 marines were hurt and they were released from the hospital yesterday but she could neither confirm nor deny that my husband was one of the 5... she was having to verify who I was in order to let me know any information and she would call me back... Panic struck... I went sobing hardly even able to speak to Michelle trying to explain what is going on... I called Nathan's brother to see if he heard anything... but that was a no. The hurt I felt eariler was horriable... but it was all gone and It was like I was able to breath once again when I picked up my phone that was ringing to hear "hey Babe" on the other end... of course I lost told him what I was informed... that I hated him(which of course I don't) ... that was a horriable feeling in the world... but we got to talk, finally after 18 days I know he's safe, living in a castle, having to crap in a bag then burn it and can't take a showers cause the water is cold, eating MRE's... but he's Okay!!! He'll call tomorrow so he can talk to everyone at my in-laws on Christmas Eve. I miss him so much!!!!

Leaving Base

So it’s getting to me not hearing from him… I mean I am expecting not to hear from him for a month but it’s hard when others that left also are calling their wife… just makes me wonder what he’s doing. I am guessing by the charge that posted on our account he’s out in a town in ....Afghanistan.... cause all the others were coming from a base so it worries me a little. I just want to hear his voice even if it was just I love you… I would know he’s okay… which I am sure he is but I still want to know. I know if he could call he would so obviously he can’t that’s why I haven’t heard something… I mean he has a satellite phone so he can call… And these holidays next week are going to be hard… I think being around his family without him there is going to be hard just because it’s his side of the family and He’s not home… but I’m there so it’s a reminder of where he’s at… and New years the day we got together… oh I think I am just going to be a hermit that day…. I watch that movie click last night and wish that I had that remote just to fast-forward to the end of May…

Let it Snow

It snowed last night here in Houston... Pretty Awesome. I was at my company's Christmas party when the Staff of the resturant came and told us. I went outside and wrote a Note for Nathan...

Though I wish he was here so we could have seen it together It was still good cause all I could do was think of him and know just how happy he makes me. It snowed like this in 2005 when I was in Japan, and now it does it when he's gone... Maybe we'll get lucky and it'll happen again when we're together!

They're Heading out

So Nathan called yesterday and I got to talk to him for about 30 minutes total between 3 phone calls. I miss him very much, didn’t find out much except he got our packages that we sent for Thanksgiving… yeah they got there late and some others we sent, and one from my friend Niki whose class wrote him for veteran’s day. So while on the phone we were laughing and joking a lot but I could sense something was bothering him so I asked and he said there were some groups made and he was leaving… couldn’t tell me to where or for how long just said they would be without communication so Merry Christmas and Happy New Year incase he couldn’t tell me on those days… so hopefully it won’t be that long but we’ll see.....