Deployment Brief

So today we had our deployment brief... and I can say that I have been handling this up coming deployment very well until today. It got to me today where I just needed to cry!. It sucks knowing when he's going to leave... and that he's been training for so long. If you take the amount of time they have trained until now I have spent a month and a half with him and by the time he deploys I will have spent 2 1/2 months out of 7 1/2 months... this just sucks... there is no way to prepare for this... it was easier on the military side cause the training gets you ready. This side you are constantly being left alone. Knowing that you are facing a 7 to 8 month time to be alone, who needs to train what feeling alone feels like? If you gone thru it once you know what it's going to be like... CRAPPY, LONELY, HARD, SUCKY!!!! But we manage, put the fake smile on and act like nothing is bothering us, that this is our life, though in the moment we may hate it.