Somthing fell thru the cracks

So I was keeping up with school and Preparing for Nathan's deployment at the same time. Turns out that I let somthing slip thru the cracks that I didn't even notice and it's a major problem now! I needed a background check done by the day Nathan deployed, though I didn't know this. And since it wasn't done the dropped me from my classes at UNCW!! Great just great! Like things aren't already bad and just went worse! I talked to my advisor and we got my background check complete. She is going to talk to the Dean of the Education for me to be readmitted into my classes. Even my Professor knows what is going on with me and the Deployment and I am caught up in his class so he is going up to bat for me as well. They understand the stitation I was in with the deployment moving up and classes started that week, so I hope the Dean is just as understanding... saying prayers to find out it I am still in class?!?

One day at a time

So I got home from school today and went to the freezer to pull out dinner for us... then cried! Cause it's not for us anymore just me... oh how I got to get used to this again. Now Off to the post office for my care package boxes! Gotta start somewhere right??

One Last Kiss

So yesterday Nathan left on Deployment. He was suppoes to leave on the LCAC's yesterday but that for what ever reason didn't happen, so he spent the night on the beach. Early this morning my mother in law and I went to the beach with Alyssa and Caleb to watch the LCAC's take off to the ship. In A rush I forgot the beach bag with all of my sunblock in it... and didn't once think that I needed it until I notice I was already red. Anyhow I didn't think I was going to get to see him at all until I got a text from him saying there were a lot of people on the beach and then we got to see each other. Not for long though he gave me a hug, his mom a hug then I got another picture of the 2 of us then one last hug and kiss then he was off... I will hold onto that moment until he gets back... and this major sunburn probably for a week! I would do it all over again leaving the beach bag at home and now look like a lobster with raccon eyes cause of my sunglasses.... just to know I got that extra hug and kiss!

Nathan's Poem he left for me

He left this for me at home the day he deployed

days speed past
as the weeks fly by
and the years come and go
before we even get the chance
to see it show.

but just remember
evertime you smile
you make time stop
so I can enjoy it for a while

The time has come

for you to leave again,

and I hate knowing I'll be here

without my best friend.

I will try to smile for you

though this pain is tearing up my heart,

because I know the moment will come

when we will have to part.

You know me

I will start to cry,

but I remember what we say

this isn't goodbye!

It's I'll see you later

when later is so far away;

Why can't tomorrow

be Homecoming Day?

So until then

your love will get me through,

to the day where I can

wrap my arms around you!!

Myrtle Beach

So we decided to go to Myrtle Beach for the Weekend. Nathan had a 96 and I decided to skip school today so that we could enjoy our last weekend together for a little while. We had a great time... we said when we left that we wouldn't argue or worry about money! We didn't!!! I have to say though I was dumb because I forgot to pack my shorts and it was 90 degrees outside, luckly we went to Old Navy when they had a sale going on. Nathan had a first with me, going to eat Lunch at Dick's resturant!!! He had never been so I can say I warned him, and he liked it, just not the hat they made him wear, though he thought mine was funny! I had a first with Nathan, going to the beach at night. It was nice... had a little moment but it was nice just walking and talking, hearing the ocean. Then outta no where pinch! I mean razor sharp pinch on my foot, and then see blood!!! Damn Crabs... It was nice experencing the beach at night, but I think from now on I will just go when I can see what I am stepping on!

Deployment has been moved up!

So We got word Last Night that in stead of leaving at the end of September they will be leaving sometime this month!!!! All I can say is I'm not at all looking forward to sleeping with the phone, weeks with no communtication, sleepless nights, getting "unknown"phone calls, when date night becomes "chat" night, crying when I miss his call, checking facebook, dropped calls, and busting out all my motto gear. But above all this I am a Proud Marine Wife!!!

Deployment Brief

So today we had our deployment brief... and I can say that I have been handling this up coming deployment very well until today. It got to me today where I just needed to cry!. It sucks knowing when he's going to leave... and that he's been training for so long. If you take the amount of time they have trained until now I have spent a month and a half with him and by the time he deploys I will have spent 2 1/2 months out of 7 1/2 months... this just sucks... there is no way to prepare for this... it was easier on the military side cause the training gets you ready. This side you are constantly being left alone. Knowing that you are facing a 7 to 8 month time to be alone, who needs to train what feeling alone feels like? If you gone thru it once you know what it's going to be like... CRAPPY, LONELY, HARD, SUCKY!!!! But we manage, put the fake smile on and act like nothing is bothering us, that this is our life, though in the moment we may hate it.