Balance

So I got some advice this week that I need to balance everything in my life. I didn't know that I wasn't balancing everything already, but I listened to what was said. Then I realized that they didn't know what all I was doing and what others had planned for me to do. I thought I was doing fine with me balancing Work, my husband deployed, no communication from my husband, taking care of our finical stuff, and dealing with some other personal things that I want to tell my Husband but can't cause he's deployed and there is NO COMMUNICATION... oh and I forgot I'm in school too.... I know what I can and can' handle... and I thought I was doing pretty well but I guess not, I guess someone could come live my life and do it better.

I am always planning for the future saving for the future, always thinking of the what ifs... but I live in the present. And sometimes life throws you a curve ball when you least expect it. Like this weekend was a friends son's 1st birthday party in League City and another friends Bachlorette party in Tomball. For the bachlorette party I planned on going to the Passions party but others wanted me to go out so I decided I'd go out with them since they were only going to the 1st club. So I needed to buy a dress to wear out cause everyone would be wearing old prom/bridesmaid dresses. Couldn't find one so whatever I'll just go dressed regular.SO...It's raining all day Saturday so when it's clearing up on our side of town I jump in my truck to head to the Birthday party the time is 12:57... I'm closer to their house than mine when it seems someone is continuously just dumping water out over my truck... ugh great what was supposed to be an hour drive turned into 2 and a half! So I'm exiting 45 to 518 and the intersection is slightly flooded but I can make it through... as I get a quarter mile down the road it's completely flood so I'm doing my best to turn around cause you can't stop... and pull into a Gas Station... which I sit at for 30 minutes... but then have to run inside cause I have to pee... While inside I ran into a firefighter and he said he would push the water out of my way for me to get on 45 just stay behind him... I didn't make it to the party but I made it home at 5:40 with my truck making a weird noise now sounds like I have crickets under the hood.

So I go to the passions party, have fun learning about all these toys to help in the bedroom and then she's taking orders... I thought about getting some things but with the way my truck is sounding I'm choosing to save the money on the toy that gets me around town... smart thinking right? Well this friend that gave me advice shows up there late and then doesn't say much to me... so when I'm leaving early because I'm not going to the club anymore (saving money now) I get I wish you were going.I realized I am balancing, balancing my checkbook. I did what I could do this weekend... Couldn't make it to the birthday party... but I made it to the passions party... just couldn't go out to the club... I was so worried about balancing that I ended up screwing something up... MY Truck! Which now will take money out of the checking account to whats wrong with it, so going out becomes... less... I take care of the responsibilities 1st then have my fun...