Conteemplating

So I have been contemplating on what I should do with moving to ....North Carolina.... or not, and I have decided to do so; even if Nathan chooses to get out of the Marines. I love being home because my family and friends are here but I want my husband way way way more. So I will be leaving the great state of ....Texas.... somewhere between May and July of 2009 to go set up a home there and before fall semester starts. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I'm excited about knowing I will be with Nathan every day but my nerves are getting me a little outta wack because I will be leaving my family, which is my support system and my best friends that I count on through thick and thin when Nathan is gone. I don't like the fact that I will once again be missing out on so many peoples lives that I have already missed for 4 years and have spent the past 2 getting back in, to leave again. That part sucks, it also sucks that I am leaving a wonderful job that I actually enjoy doing and love the people I work with and for, I don't think I could find a better job even though it's not my dream job. It's going to be so hard find a job like that in NC. I hate the fact that I am going to have to spend way more money to attend college because I will now be an out of state resident. I don't even want to begin to think that I have to find a home get it set up and get everything from here moved to there or even how much that is going to cost. Though looking at all that negative there is a greater positive that awaits me there and that is the love of my life. He's stationed there and can't leave. He wants me there and I want to be with him even if it means leaving everything (again) that I have known to be with him. I can't wait until he comes home to me every day and goes to bed with me every night. I can't wait for us to start planning a family with each other and you can't do that when one person is far from the other. This is going to come as a shock to some of my friends and some I have told so far are saying that Nathan is being selfish and pulling me from what I know, but I can say that if anyone's husband or wife was being relocated they would go because that's their life, and Nathan is mine. I chose to be with him and I chose to be a Marine wife…