Finally!

Oh Where do I begin, lets see I finally got my plane ticket to go see Nathan, who by the way leaves on the 15th. It was just stressful having to deal with the changes all the damn time with what date he was going to be leaving, like it even changed last night, the last word I got from him was that he didn't know so I planned on heading out the night of the 7th to attend the Marine Corps Ball with him on the 8th and then leave on Sunday... he called last night to inform me that for sure he would be leaving on the 15th (thank god I didn't buy my plane tickets) But I have got them now and will be seeing him from the 10th through the 15th. My 2 cents on it though is that it is so frustrating not knowing when something will be, it's like they should tell him because he has family that would like to know... DUH! but hey I can relate because I was in that same situation a few years ago.. not knowing when we were going to leave, so I came home on leave to be recalled 10 days later... when it's time to go that's when they will let you know... I hate that system!

Yikes... IKE!!!

So we just got internet back... it was gone thanks to IKE! I haven't been able to talk to Nathan much since the hurricane hit because he has been busy finishing up his training out in 29 Palms before he heads back to Camp LeJeune. School started back up today as well so that's back to normal and will help occupy my time until I can go and see him off... which who knows when that will be. As far as he knows it's between the 10th through the 19th. Damn Military!

Conteemplating

So I have been contemplating on what I should do with moving to ....North Carolina.... or not, and I have decided to do so; even if Nathan chooses to get out of the Marines. I love being home because my family and friends are here but I want my husband way way way more. So I will be leaving the great state of ....Texas.... somewhere between May and July of 2009 to go set up a home there and before fall semester starts. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I'm excited about knowing I will be with Nathan every day but my nerves are getting me a little outta wack because I will be leaving my family, which is my support system and my best friends that I count on through thick and thin when Nathan is gone. I don't like the fact that I will once again be missing out on so many peoples lives that I have already missed for 4 years and have spent the past 2 getting back in, to leave again. That part sucks, it also sucks that I am leaving a wonderful job that I actually enjoy doing and love the people I work with and for, I don't think I could find a better job even though it's not my dream job. It's going to be so hard find a job like that in NC. I hate the fact that I am going to have to spend way more money to attend college because I will now be an out of state resident. I don't even want to begin to think that I have to find a home get it set up and get everything from here moved to there or even how much that is going to cost. Though looking at all that negative there is a greater positive that awaits me there and that is the love of my life. He's stationed there and can't leave. He wants me there and I want to be with him even if it means leaving everything (again) that I have known to be with him. I can't wait until he comes home to me every day and goes to bed with me every night. I can't wait for us to start planning a family with each other and you can't do that when one person is far from the other. This is going to come as a shock to some of my friends and some I have told so far are saying that Nathan is being selfish and pulling me from what I know, but I can say that if anyone's husband or wife was being relocated they would go because that's their life, and Nathan is mine. I chose to be with him and I chose to be a Marine wife…