Day One!

Today is a rough day. I said bye to Nathan again… Lord that is the hardest thing I have to do and I have done it 3 times now… I now know what my family felt like when I would leave, but it's still a little different because that's my Husband. I have never felt like my heart was beating outside my body like it has been today. I have cried and keep crying like seriously I think that I should be all shriveled up by now. I left the airport and crying and cried all the way back to the office. Michelle (my friend at work) made me feel tons better cause we decided to have Fuddruckers for Lunch… comfort food is what we call it… and to take my mind off the fact he wasn't here anymore. Nathan called shortly after to say he was back in ....North Carolina.... and I lost it all over again… When I got home from work that was the worse… to things he left (by accident) kept the tears flowing. I somehow managed to fall a sleep to wake up to Nathan calling and the crying started all over again… it's going to take a few to get used to being by myself again.