I heard his ring tone

Finally got to talk to Nathan today… My phone started ringing with his ringer and I got all excited!!! I have actually been looking at places besides Ashlynn Manor to have our wedding…and we talked about that but it still looks like it will be there (its beautiful there) and he actually said he'd wear his blues to that wedding!!!!! I start my fall classes today which is good because it will help time go by faster until I get to go see him off… though I am nervous because I don't think I will do that well in A&P… though Nathan encouraged me with his kind words of 'Don't worry about it just do good' LOL that's what I'm nervous about… damn Loser… that's what I married… but I love him…

No Bars No Place... they don' thave us covered

Nathan called… using a calling card. I should call and complain that they don't have signal where he is at… but I was just happy to talk to him… He said it's hot and he'll be there for about 40 days… then they come back to NC. I miss him… and that Carrie Underwood song just a dream is playing in the Background… lord good song, just hope it doesn't come true….

SERIOUSLY

I was standing in line at Kroger just minding my own business today and the lady in front of me was talking on her cell Phone… yeah heard her say that her Husband was going to be out of town for a week and that she needed a girls night in so she wouldn't miss him because it's been hard for the past couple of days… Are you serious, like for real does this lady even know what I live on a daily basis… she couldn't handle my life… for real don't complain cause you have to go a week without your 'other' there are tons of Military families missing their Wives, Husbands, Aunts, Uncles, Daughters, Sons, Brothers, Sisters, Moms and Dads for way more than a week cause they are defending our freedom…. Okay I'm off my soap box now!!

29 Palms

Nathan left for 29 Palms today… he called while he was in Dallas on a lay over, said he took his Phone but didn't know if he'd have signal… guess we will have to wait and see.

Bad Dream

So I had a dream, a very very bad dream that I shouldn't have had…. I woke up a few minutes later though to a wet pillow…. Nathan called shortly after and I told him about it as he told me that they were leaving on the 17th to go to 29 Palms, Ca for training for a month… Yeah and they aren't leaving on the 22nd of September it should be towards the end of October now, gotta love the Military…

Married Alone Lifestlye

Well I am back into the 'alone' lifestyle again… getting used to the daily phone calls that last forever to talk about nothing… and when I mean nothing that's what it is, but hey I'm on the phone with my man that's all that matters. He's slowly getting things that I need to process back into the Military, just as a dependent' this time done and we have gotten word that he will be leaving on the 22nd of September to go to ....Iraq....… Woo, yeah right. I can't believe that it has to be that day, I was wanting his mom to go with me to see him off but that's the day of his step-dads surgery, so it looks like I am gonna go through this alone… god help the person sitting next to me on the plane ride back to Houston…

Day One!

Today is a rough day. I said bye to Nathan again… Lord that is the hardest thing I have to do and I have done it 3 times now… I now know what my family felt like when I would leave, but it's still a little different because that's my Husband. I have never felt like my heart was beating outside my body like it has been today. I have cried and keep crying like seriously I think that I should be all shriveled up by now. I left the airport and crying and cried all the way back to the office. Michelle (my friend at work) made me feel tons better cause we decided to have Fuddruckers for Lunch… comfort food is what we call it… and to take my mind off the fact he wasn't here anymore. Nathan called shortly after to say he was back in ....North Carolina.... and I lost it all over again… When I got home from work that was the worse… to things he left (by accident) kept the tears flowing. I somehow managed to fall a sleep to wake up to Nathan calling and the crying started all over again… it's going to take a few to get used to being by myself again.