but I do know this... being dropped, rejected, by anyone or anything... was God's way of saying "Kiddo you were going in the wrong direction"
People come into your life for a reason... still can't figure out the reason why this person was in mine. I met through family and found out our husbands were deployed together, small world when we are nowhere near a military base. We met at her work, and we seemed to have some things in common, one being that we spoke what was on our mind. We really didn't know each other that well and only talked maybe 3 times but we decided that we would drive up here to Jville together, I was moving all my crap here while, she was following in her car. I paid for our hotel room when we stopped, shared a bed with my mom while she got the other bed to herself. Once here, She stayed at my house and I even gave her the blow up mattress, while I slept on the floor. Worried about her when I heard life changing news, even told her mother in law, as she drove back to Houston with this persons mom, that I would be willing to be a surrogate, and I haven't even had children yet. I'm not trying to talk crap, or just point out the good I did, I’m just saying I give to others before I give to myself, even someone I really didn't know that well, but who I am considering a friend. Looking back at that situation, I can say if the roles were reversed, she wouldn't have done the same.
We've only hung out a couple of more times after we were settled in Jville, but that changed when our husbands deployed again. It's like a deployment can make you get closer and count on your friends, or help you make friends. The guys left and we were hanging out, even met another wife...a NAVY wife... Go Navy! We plan for the what if's in the deployment and cry to each other about them, cause thats what friends do. She tells the other wives that I'm a bitch and that I speak my mind, and people might not like that, but she does, and that I am loyal and can keep a secret. I know this from a few of the other wives that had told me so. So she thinks good of me... I mean that’s what you should think about friends. So everything is good right?
Everyone has been hanging out and having a good time when we are all together then one day I get the feeling something was going on, I ask what the matter was, didn't get a response. Now I am not one to be upset if someone wants to talk to another mutual friend because they have something going on, that is fine. It is when this person literally keep their back to me and can't tell me to my face that the something wrong is me... so they claim they can speak their mind ... but can't speak it to me? This Person can tell others what I did but can't tell me? This person can tell others that I know what I did, but honestly I have no clue what I did to offend/piss off/ upset this person. This person can tell a mutual friend that if she hangs out with me, that they will be pissed at the mutual friend. Give me a break, we are not kids saying you can't be my friend anymore. I chose to be an adult and pull myself away from the mutual friend, because I do not want her caught in the middle, tho I have a feeling it's going to bite me in the ass cause she’s a great friend.
So I have no clue what I did to this person, but it’s obvious I did something, and what I did I will never know. And because I don't know what I did, I don't know how to fix it... because I sent a few texts and asked what I did so I could try to fix whatever it is... still heard nothing. I mean if you have something that is broke you can fix it, only if you know what the problem is... If you don't, you just throw it away... guess it wasn't needed anymore... and just keep living life... there are better things out there than to worry about than small stuff like why someone came into your life... or whatever it is I did... cause I don't care anymore to know... or care to fix it... cause a true friend would have told me what I did to begin with! Guess I just figrued out what the purpose was for this person... to show me what a true friend isn't.
People come into your life for a reason... still can't figure out the reason why this person was in mine. I met through family and found out our husbands were deployed together, small world when we are nowhere near a military base. We met at her work, and we seemed to have some things in common, one being that we spoke what was on our mind. We really didn't know each other that well and only talked maybe 3 times but we decided that we would drive up here to Jville together, I was moving all my crap here while, she was following in her car. I paid for our hotel room when we stopped, shared a bed with my mom while she got the other bed to herself. Once here, She stayed at my house and I even gave her the blow up mattress, while I slept on the floor. Worried about her when I heard life changing news, even told her mother in law, as she drove back to Houston with this persons mom, that I would be willing to be a surrogate, and I haven't even had children yet. I'm not trying to talk crap, or just point out the good I did, I’m just saying I give to others before I give to myself, even someone I really didn't know that well, but who I am considering a friend. Looking back at that situation, I can say if the roles were reversed, she wouldn't have done the same.
We've only hung out a couple of more times after we were settled in Jville, but that changed when our husbands deployed again. It's like a deployment can make you get closer and count on your friends, or help you make friends. The guys left and we were hanging out, even met another wife...a NAVY wife... Go Navy! We plan for the what if's in the deployment and cry to each other about them, cause thats what friends do. She tells the other wives that I'm a bitch and that I speak my mind, and people might not like that, but she does, and that I am loyal and can keep a secret. I know this from a few of the other wives that had told me so. So she thinks good of me... I mean that’s what you should think about friends. So everything is good right?
Everyone has been hanging out and having a good time when we are all together then one day I get the feeling something was going on, I ask what the matter was, didn't get a response. Now I am not one to be upset if someone wants to talk to another mutual friend because they have something going on, that is fine. It is when this person literally keep their back to me and can't tell me to my face that the something wrong is me... so they claim they can speak their mind ... but can't speak it to me? This Person can tell others what I did but can't tell me? This person can tell others that I know what I did, but honestly I have no clue what I did to offend/piss off/ upset this person. This person can tell a mutual friend that if she hangs out with me, that they will be pissed at the mutual friend. Give me a break, we are not kids saying you can't be my friend anymore. I chose to be an adult and pull myself away from the mutual friend, because I do not want her caught in the middle, tho I have a feeling it's going to bite me in the ass cause she’s a great friend.
So I have no clue what I did to this person, but it’s obvious I did something, and what I did I will never know. And because I don't know what I did, I don't know how to fix it... because I sent a few texts and asked what I did so I could try to fix whatever it is... still heard nothing. I mean if you have something that is broke you can fix it, only if you know what the problem is... If you don't, you just throw it away... guess it wasn't needed anymore... and just keep living life... there are better things out there than to worry about than small stuff like why someone came into your life... or whatever it is I did... cause I don't care anymore to know... or care to fix it... cause a true friend would have told me what I did to begin with! Guess I just figrued out what the purpose was for this person... to show me what a true friend isn't.
Enough said... off my box now... and yeah everyone has their box!
